Well its been a month ....just over a month and I have managed to keep my mind in a few pretty good head space. I've gott enjoy christmas with me mother and the family for the first time in a lot of years.
    The oddest part about being out is the adjusting to the reality of what the real world is. I hate change and the real world is always changing.
   I've had a issue adjusting with getting involved in relationships ...big time.. I have such severe trust issues.. And I also have no patience for jealousy and stupidity... Unnecesassary judgment and assumptions. After me relationship with Joe i do jot have the mind set deal with anything that makes me unsettled or unhappy in anyway.
     I am finding that the person I thought would have been out here holding it down for me and instead what I get someone who ran there mouth and attempted toruin my name.... Somthing I'm having alot of personal issues with...no one is gonna say I'm a rat that's for sure...to my face anyway...and anyone that would believe it is a conpleate and utter moron for beliveing it.common sence really ain't thay hard to come by...mabey there are a select few...but .again..I say...moron....3 years 22 days 12 hours and 47 minutes...18 months left on parole. ....enough said...
        In finding people I chill with now...are all in a different ring and it is what I need to help me change my life...new people new ways n . Life lol....anyway... I can feel my eyes wanting to shut and go to sleep so I better get my ass to bed...zzzzzzzz gnight world.